? !

She is on a giant wheel,

The world spinning around her,or,is she?

She takes a deep breath…

That is how it’s meant to be.

The flashwheels strike again,

Taking her through another frame,

O’ the past filled with pain….

It all started with the lil’ uncle with the yellow teeth,

“What do you wanna do in life dear? he asked”

With every fleck of his yellow teeth shining bright n clear.

At the speck of the moment it started,

Her mind started exploring…

Things came knocking at her head,

She dreamt about the life that lay ahead

Momma said “Doctor”, Papa said “Collector”

But she said “Aw man!I wanna be different!”

With eyes so wide,she screamed with all pride,

Closing her eyes,she danced along with the pictures

Floating in her mind,entangled with her thoughts.

She loved food n she pictured herself in a white hood,

Ah!But that didn’t suit her style and her mood..

She was funky, with a wacky creativity and Viola!

She turned her head towards the media,but then

She always knew that flashlights were her phobia.

She could express herself better with a pen than a mic,

Words were her weapon when she wanted to strike.

And so she thought about journalism,but there came

Her folks with lips breathing pessimism..!

She hit the ceiling in retaliation,but down she came ...

Slower than expected,’cause there was,

She hated to agree,but still,there was,

A speck of truth in what they said…

Blinded by tears,she lowered her head…

“What next?” she questioned herself…

And let her eyes fall upon an article,

An article about genes and that’s when she felt the beat!

“This is it!, she cried, “Yes I know!”, she confessed,

“Genetics will be it”, she swore!!

Explore, Invent, discover knocked at her mind’s vocabulary,

The very thought made her feel like a celebrity!

She built her genetic castle with not bricks but with sweat,

But dear God, had different plans..

She couldn’t perform well in the entrance exams,

Though she knew she could’ve done better.

A string of “If only's” started hitting her.

It was too late, time just took her away..!

She jumps into the present,with a start..

She sees a shape at a distance..

It pictures her state of mind…

It looked something that marked her life..

Sudden brilliant brightness…And

Blinding her eyes was a “?” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-SOMSIE

Written during the confusion phase…taken straight out of the diary…!No editing!

P.S.:
God's different plan however worked out. Somsie is into genetics now, something she has always wanted in life....!
Just saw this poem, in my old diary(journal). Found it very interesting,amusing,hilarious and lots more...Memoirs of the past...Always a wonder to me..!!!

Excerpts from a k-i-d-s Diary....

Once again...Memoirs of the past, baffle me.. I came through a few poems written out of love for a certain G.Vivek Shiva Kumar, who fortunately happens to be my brother! :P :P :D Here are two distinctly different poems, each targetting a different emotion. The most important coincidence was, I had written the first one on 17/6/03..and the second on 17/3/04 ... :O :O :O Exactly a year after, on the same day. I just don't know what to call it..! :) Here goes...

B-R-O-T-H-E-R -L-Y Loves...

Sometimes he drove me crazy and acted like a pest…

But even back when we were kids, my bro was the best!

He has always had his loyal ways of sticking up for me…

And staying at my side, when I’ve trusted him to be…

He has always known, just what I need to hear n what I don’t,

He has known when making light of things will help and when they won’t…

So when things get tough,

When the push has come to shove, year in and year out,

I’ve counted on my brother’s Love..

Although I don’t always say it,

Although I don’t always do it,

I hope it somehow shows through..

That you are very special to me…

As lovely a brother can be…!

Dated : 17/6/03

B-R-O-T-H-E-R-L-Y Blues !~!

Hey Brother, Big Brother!

Who are you? How did you become my brother?

Really dunno..But there is an invisible thread between us,

That brings joy and happiness..!

Where have those times gone…?

When you cradled me when I was born…

You were my hero when I was a kid…

Now it’s time for you to have a kid..!

Where have all those times gone?

When we used to play pranks on each other..

And end up securing high ranks..!

Where have all those times gone?

When we used to play the “caw-caw” game,

Acting as crows searching for food and fame.

Have you forgotten those good old times?

Those absolutely yummy old times?

Those years of infinite love and affection..

Which has now turned into an infection..

I rarely get a smile or a nod from you..

Leave alone an encouraging hug from you..

Has the time changed so much??

That you don’t care for me much..

Has your spirit vanished?

Or has it been demolished?

Can the changing world put a stop to this?

Guess not!..But it can surely bring a change in you..!

I hope…I hope……:(

-Dated 17/3/04

P.S. : Here's a tissue for the second one.. ;-) ;-) The background for the mega-serialish second poem is that my bro got into a job and after that things were'nt the same...That was then..But now..things have changed so much..I love my bro..I don't call him Anna anyways..But I can always type Anna...! ;) Anna ,You're the Best!! Love You!!

Tagggloooooo - After the Break ;-)

I hereby declare that the following names were typed at random, and the questions following them were answered truly to the best of my knowledge :)
1.Sharanya
2.Maggi
3.Niru
4.Dinesh
5.Subha
6.Vivek
7.Aishwarya
8.Sruthi
9.Disney
10.Ram
11.Nishant
12.Arun
13.Dominica
14.Alice
15.Augustin
16.Sharmila
17.Prasanna(SierraManiac)
18.Divya Priya Raghavan
19.Siddarth Sankaran
20.Sowmya Sankaran

The above names were typed randomly,as and when they came to my head.Sharanya was the one to pull me into yet another "Tagggloooooo"..Hence it's part two,after the break,reminding me of a mega mega serial once upon a time on DD - "Adithya danraaj panakaara naaye" ,followed immediately by Junoon After the break.And after the break, its again "Adithya Dhanraj Panakaara naaye!!"... Well...But I don't think this tagggloooo will be an exact replica as the previous one, like in the example stated above.... Anyways, here goes...Taggglooooooooooo(Name longer, the second time! ;-) )

How did you meet 14?

Alice is Dominica's Best friend , who is Sharanaya's Best friend, who is My Best Friend. Confusing?? - It better be..We became close friends in college...(Both Domi n Alice). Sharanya has been best friend from school..:)

What would you do if you have never met 1?

I would'nt have anyone to share my birthday.I would have lost someone who understands me the best.I would have lost a person always close to my heart.I wouldn't be blogging this post today (She happens to be the one who tagged me! :P)


What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?

I would probably end up laughing my guts out! ! ! ! ! ! :P :P :P

Did you ever like 19?

I love him..!! He is my sweeeeetest kid brother...Someone who has been there since childhood.Though we are'nt cousins, we like calling ourselves so..!

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?

*Ahem Ahem* Maybe they would...Both being my brothers ;-)


Describe 3

Niru is a short,cute,chubby pie.My very close friend since class 7.Fate Rules..And I thought why am I made to sit next to this girl all of a sudden...And suddenly, she became my best friend...

Do you think 8 is attractive?

Yeah, she is!! Another childhood buddy (4th std till date) ;)

Tell me something about 7

Aishwarya is my Mom's friend's daughter. We share close birthday dates (Me being jan 4 n she bein jan6)...Been family friends for a long time.She is very sweet and the best dancer ever! Very creative and my Dad sometimes says she resembles Angelina Jolie..Yah..She is pretty!

Do you know any of 12's family?

Actually Nopes...I wonder if even Domi knows ;-) ;-)

What's 18's favourite?

That would be "snubbing" people who ofcourse deserve it ;-) She'z just tooo good at it..Queen of Snubs. Another one of her favourites is Animals..She is literally in love with all the animals in the planet :) (My twin soul, this being the only area where we differ :))

What's 11's specialty?

He is (was now )my senior at college who later became a friend. A member of the College band, who can work wonders with the keyboard..Too good at it.. ;-) ;-) Loved him best when he played the entire sequence(bgm) from "Kaala kaala kaalamaga kaadhaluku naangal arpanam " from Punnagai Mannan.


Who is 9 going out with?

Disney...Hmm..No idea..I know someone he might be going out with in the future ;-) Secret!

How old is 16 now?

Sharmila is my bench associate, popularly known as "the Come On tigers THALA"...She is 20 years old but looks like she is 16..

When was the last time you talked to 13?

This evening , in the bus. When we were deciding where she should get down to meet you - know- who, for a few You-might-not-know-who...So..Freeya vidungooooo!! :P


Who's 2's favourite band/singer?

I would say EMINEM. She was the one who got me into listening to Eminem . I love the guy for his guts...Her favourite lines from The real slim shady " My Bum is On ur lips..^2..And if I'm lucky,you might just give it a lil kiss" ;-) ;-) (Mags...hehe....u better read this...Unkita thittu vaangi rombo naal aachu)

Would you date 4?

Nah..Dinesh is my very very good friend..Rakhi bro since class 7.. :)

Is 15 single?

Nopes, Augustin is Domi's friend..A guy who is a kid at heart..But its a wonder..Even he's committed.. :)


What's 10's last name?

Kumar ...The namez RAM KUMAR...

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 13?

I am in a serious relationship - Dominica is a very dear friend to me..;-)

Which school does 3 go to?

Does'nt go to school now..Used to go to "St.John's CBSE"... (where we share great memories :D )

Where does 6 live?

He is my "big" Anna who is at present doing his MS in the US...I think he calls his appartment Waterview or something.. :) :)(*fingers crossed*temporary residence ;-) ;-))

What's your favourite thing about 5?

Subha ("Tiger Subha" *hehe*)...is tooo good in kalaaiching and dabaaiching.I love her sense of humour.She has an awesome attitude..!

*Paparapaaaam* THE END *Paparapaaam* (There, atleast this post has come to an end..unlike "Junoon" ;-) ;-) I think the serial would be as old as me...!! :O :O :O :P )

So who am I taggin?
Divyapriya,Sindhu,Prasanna,Arun

*Thank You!*

Taggglooooo!!

Honestly speaking, I din't know what the "networkin" "Tagged "meant, until one fine day, my cousin sent me a link with a set of questions to be answered, and asked me to blog exactly what I (managed to)answer..So here I am..trying to interpret the 6 letter word to the best of my knowledge... Sowmya presents to you - "Taggglooooo" (my own name for it, exceeding the six letters ;-))

1) Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.
On top of my right eyebrow. Got it when I was a kid (I don't remember how old, but definitely was into schooling!)We were off to Planetarium for some "star gazing" but were late by 10 minutes. We had to wait for the next show for about an hours time. Luckily, there was a park in vicinity - a place where kids run around, and parents chase around...I was getting high on a swing, when an ill-fated boy came in between. Two things happened - he broke his teeth, his teeth tore my forehead. I was immediately rushed to a hospital nearby, stitched back together in place , which ultimately left the scar.
2) What does your phone look like?
Its not exactly mine.It was inherited from my bro.It stays in place with the help of
a black disco rubber band (due to the loose battery).It has none of the accessories it is supposed to have,something which the mobiles promise you.Probably because my bro lost them and naturally,I didn't get to inherit them. Well when compared to my old "antique- 2100"Nokia model, this mobile definitely promises something :)

3) What is on the walls of your bedroom?
Nothing,except for a "mala" my mom got when she took VRS from Bsnl. (Yes, I(still) sleep with my Mom..!)

4) What is your current desktop picture?

A picture taken on my birthday with beautiful memories attached to it - me and bro smiling away to glory. Two pictures were taken - One where I smiled best, another where he smiled best. The first one went into my album on Orkut, the second one on his album ;-) Eventually, the first one also got the privilege of being my desktop picture :)

5) Do you believe in Gay marriage?
Yeah..Actually I believe in marriages that people are left to do freely,be it gay or non gay. I believe that it is human rights..If Gods can marry,why not "Gays"???

6) What do you want more than anything right now?
To get rid of my fear of getting hit by a bike.

7) What time were you born?
Somewhere around 8.30 in the morning on a Sunday , 4th of January,1987.
And I make it a point to sleep till 8.30 on every Sunday possible :D

8) Are your parents still together?
Ofcourse!

9) Last person who made you cry.

Definitely has to be the person who stitched back my head into place. Hopefully, I don't remember anything which caused me pain.

10) What is your favorite perfume/cologne?

Poison (Courtesy : BRO)
Deo - Yardley

11) What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?

Hair colour : Black
Eye colour : Brown

12) What are you listening to?

Travellin Soldier,Hotel Keralafonia,Bizarre Love triangle,Nenjam Ellam,Tere bina,Maula mera , Dont tell me,complicated,Ban the polica,Meatloaf-Its all coming back to me,I'm like a bird,Someday,bheegi bheegi raaton main,Indian rain,Gori teri aankhon main,yunhin chala,Naguvo,un arugil varugayil,mora saiyan,lose yourself,my immortal,in the end.

13) Do you get scared of the dark?
Slightly tensed.Not necessarily scared.I don't attach any particular feelings to darkness.I love candle lights,which come into existence whenever there is a "rare"power failure in our area. I enjoy it for its beauty(especially when they flicker n dance) and not for the "romantic" tag attached to it.

14) Do you like pain killers?
Only when I 'm in pain.

15) Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes.I would probably take more time to look at that someone straight in the eye, or starting up a conversation would be
a big deal for me.I'm definitely one of those shy types.But all this is when it happens when I meet in person.I am more expressive when I m given the choice of typing or writing rather than talking.Well,thats me.

16) If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Rasagula,Mum's Curd rice + Rasam+Potato Chips,MagiNoodles(egg)

17) Who was the last person who made you mad?
That's a tough one (Coz there is obviously more than one). Has to be my CRE Sir.

18) Who was the last person who made you smile?
My anna.When he commented on my post about mom.It was truly a "family thing",and definitelythe "Naalai Namadhe" MOMENT!! ;-) ;-)


*AVM BGM ;-)* The End *Pudupettai BGM* ;-) ;-) ;-)

Note :
Well, I was actually asked to send these questions to fellow bloggers, and they will go through the same stuff I went through . (Yaam petra thunbam,Vayyagamum peruga) (Excuse moi, for the wrong tamil saying! :D) So I thought I would probably paste the questions at the bottom.Anyone interested can copy them.Your wish! :)



1) Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.

2) What does your phone look like?

3) What is on the walls of your bedroom?

4) What is your current desktop picture?

5) Do you believe in Gay marriage?

6) What do you want more than anything right now?

7) What time were you born?

8) Are your parents still together?

9) Last person who made you cry.

10) What is your favorite perfume/cologne?


11) What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?


12) What are you listening to?


13) Do you get scared of the dark?


14) Do you like pain killers?


15) Are you too shy to ask someone out?

16) If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?


17) Who was the last person who made you mad?


18) Who was the last person who made you smile?